i recently sent out an email to someone who doesn't know me from a hole in the wall. at the bottom of that email there was a signiture with a link which pointed them here. this realization prompted me to try reading my last few posts from the perspective of someone outside my group of friends. upon reading (especially my last post), i was struck by how haughty and arrogant my tone was. i know that while instrospection is healthy, "extrospection" (i guess i mean inspecting how other people perceive you) can be unhealthy. regardless, i'm going to try to affect that perception here by showing you all how extra humble i really am.

to begin with, in my last post i mentioned my postmodern literature professor. the post sounded like i had somehow bested him and an entire [french] country of philosophers. the reality is that studying this subject has shown me how little i know and how far i have to go before i can hold a candle academically speaking to their knowledge. what i was intending to say was that because any working definition of God must include the fact that he's bigger than us and bigger than anything we can perceive or conceptualize, any of our philosophies will fall woefully short of encapsulating Him.

my professor has inspired me into new levels of thought and ideas, and has actually helped motivate me to write Cain. see? i'm really pretty humble. probably more humble than you.